i'm beginning to hate myself..for, almost everything.
i'm also beginning to hate her or to be exact them.....

i know i'm not as good as them, everything opposite...guys swoorn over their sweetness and motherly-ness...

grrr... i really hate them already...dammit. hate them~ then more i see, the more i hate. I dun even wanna mention or talk about them to other ppl.

Of course i blame myself, but it does not change the fact that i'm gradually hating them, more and more to some extend.

maybe there isn't any place for me .........i'm not ..
maybe i shouldn't be here in the first place also......accident maybe?

sometimes...juz wanna *screw life*. regret later or not? who cares.... like something can be done later la..

*screw them*

I really hope that i could have a chance to redeem myself...
Would it come again?
These chances....
Still i blame myself

Is hoping on chances good? or bad...

stupid me...

like.....

the feelings juz doesn't goes away....
misses the hugs.. :(

i still miss him....i still really do like him..

a question asked b4..what is love to me?

love is...when i yearn to see someone almost everyday, spend time with him, seeing his face..i'll smile inside :)

feelings......

i'm confused.....

i dun feel like doing anything else, besides being with him....nvr had this kind of feelings before...

coming back to mlk, yea...toll money and all...but it's satisfying

confused heart

*whack myself*

pen-ing down

Hope....something that other dun really believe..
Something that others letting hope go...

All these years, i never "fight" for love, always let it go...let it go, n yea, they go to other ppl..
Sometimes i wonder why?

I guess it's juz me , it's juz me.

Spending time with him gives me the comfort, the company, the joy...
who cares what ppl says....they are not me, they dunno what i feel...
if it was so easy as they say, there would not be a love-depression

i guess it's juz me, it's juz me.......

lil very very crazy

i'm not being my normal self at times....

ppl can tell me what to do, but i decide what i wanna do....

i dunno when i'll stop loving him..

maybe physical pain can overcome the emotional pain..it tempts me to try..

we'll see how ..~

-lil me--