I really hope that i could have a chance to redeem myself...
Would it come again?
These chances....
Still i blame myself

Is hoping on chances good? or bad...

stupid me...

like.....

the feelings juz doesn't goes away....
misses the hugs.. :(

i still miss him....i still really do like him..

a question asked b4..what is love to me?

love is...when i yearn to see someone almost everyday, spend time with him, seeing his face..i'll smile inside :)

feelings......

i'm confused.....

i dun feel like doing anything else, besides being with him....nvr had this kind of feelings before...

coming back to mlk, yea...toll money and all...but it's satisfying

confused heart

*whack myself*

pen-ing down

Hope....something that other dun really believe..
Something that others letting hope go...

All these years, i never "fight" for love, always let it go...let it go, n yea, they go to other ppl..
Sometimes i wonder why?

I guess it's juz me , it's juz me.

Spending time with him gives me the comfort, the company, the joy...
who cares what ppl says....they are not me, they dunno what i feel...
if it was so easy as they say, there would not be a love-depression

i guess it's juz me, it's juz me.......

lil very very crazy

i'm not being my normal self at times....

ppl can tell me what to do, but i decide what i wanna do....

i dunno when i'll stop loving him..

maybe physical pain can overcome the emotional pain..it tempts me to try..

we'll see how ..~

-lil me--

i miss him :(

*sniff*

It's been about a month since everything happened..
I tried to ask myself why..
am i not good enough?
am i not party gal enough?
maybe i'm short...

It's not that i'm low confidence in myself previously, juz wanted to get some attention..
now i regretted in wanted to be pampered..

Wanted to go for industrial training fast fast because i wanted to forget..but i currently can't
It actually made things worse..it hurts so badly.

There are a lot of things that i should had done..i regretted it now ..i wished i could had done it
Me n my pamperness...

I really blamed myself for this...

Hearing that he likes someone else..really pierce my heart

Cried a bit from time to time, coz it's juz all bottled up..till some period that it's too full.

I dunno what to think, i dunno what to do..
People been telling me that i'm crazy

Wished i can open my mouth and tell him all these but i'm afraid..
i'm afraid that he would avoid me..


I guess that i'm more heartbroken than i thought i am.