lil very very crazy

i'm not being my normal self at times....

ppl can tell me what to do, but i decide what i wanna do....

i dunno when i'll stop loving him..

maybe physical pain can overcome the emotional pain..it tempts me to try..

we'll see how ..~

-lil me--

i miss him :(

*sniff*

It's been about a month since everything happened..
I tried to ask myself why..
am i not good enough?
am i not party gal enough?
maybe i'm short...

It's not that i'm low confidence in myself previously, juz wanted to get some attention..
now i regretted in wanted to be pampered..

Wanted to go for industrial training fast fast because i wanted to forget..but i currently can't
It actually made things worse..it hurts so badly.

There are a lot of things that i should had done..i regretted it now ..i wished i could had done it
Me n my pamperness...

I really blamed myself for this...

Hearing that he likes someone else..really pierce my heart

Cried a bit from time to time, coz it's juz all bottled up..till some period that it's too full.

I dunno what to think, i dunno what to do..
People been telling me that i'm crazy

Wished i can open my mouth and tell him all these but i'm afraid..
i'm afraid that he would avoid me..


I guess that i'm more heartbroken than i thought i am.